its really not fair! everything i ever cared about is fadeding away and its takeing me with it. its like a snearing pain that never gos away no matter how happy i am it just stays there. i feel emtpy like theres nothing where my heart used to be and when there is its getting torn slowily right down the middle,its acctual pain, sometimes i feel like thoughting up blood beaucse it really feels like my hearts being riped in half and puched and stabed beaucse i feel so empty! anyyone i ever liked or cared about always hurts me or leaves me and each time they do there takeing a chucnk of me with them and sometimes...theres nothing left for myself. people always complain how bad their life is if somebody leaves them like a firend or there friend got in a little fight with them.i want to slap these people,beaucse they don't know, they haven't feelt the pain i've feelt and compared to what there feeling their practily jumping up and down in happyness compared to my pain! people always ask me to help them EVEN THOUGHT I CAN'T EVEN HELP MYSELF don't say , oh i understand how you feel or i've been thought that beacuse you can never! never! EVER! be as in much pain as i am! idc if your cat died,your grandma,grandpa,dad and mom beaucse i've HAD ALL OF THOSE HAPPEN TO ME AND ABOVE! i've had things i've knowen since i was born snached away,people leave me after they said they loved me,promises smashed and my heart broken...and it hurts....